Dark Post about Repatriation

People talk about it.  You might read about it if you're planning to go and work abroad.

Repatriation is basically when you come back to the location you were before you set off to your exotic journey of working abroad AND traveling.  So when I left MSP to live and work in SGN for 2.5 years it was amazing.  Now it is almost one year (plus 2 days) so on June 10th, 2014 I was diagnosed with guillain barre syndrome.

It didn't even really hit me until a few weeks ago though I was actually in SFO.  It's almost as if this last year just sped past me, but this year it was extra fast.

Chronicles of my life a year ago in one month and two days

June 9th - I'm in Vietnam and just started my new job, 2nd week or work and ThuyKha leaves back to ATL at midnight
June 10th - Admit myself to the hospital in D1, then D7, then D5
Early Julyish - I fly back to the US and spend a few days in ANA before heading back to MSP
August/September -  Physical and occupational therapy two a days (just like NFL and NBA players) along with a special nurse gives me King treatment
September - I fall and crash my niece's scooter, scar up my body and beautiful face for the rest of my life but lesson well learned.
End of September I move to SFO, start my new job on September 28th or 29th to receive health insurance for October
December 27th - the day after Christmas I get fired for the first time ever.
End of December - I finally get a life long achievement award and have someone pay for my flight and hotel.  I ended up going to CES in Las Vegas and getting horribly sick the moment I return.
December - Boo boo came to visit for the next two months!
January and February - Discover San Francisco, Monterey, Carmel, Twin Peaks, Kirby Cove, Golden Gate Bridge, Mission District, 24th Street in Noe Valley, hipster cafes, Pacifica and the beach, Highway 1, drove to LA and spend 2 weeks there with my family + Laguna Beach, San Luis Obispo and Santa Barbara on the way back.  Santa Cruz, Half Moon Bay, Pier 39 and Fisherman's Wharf, the Ferry Building and scary SF downtown late at night, Super Duper Burger, home cooked meals with organic produce from Trade Joe's and multiple fun Costco runs.  Learning how to make Hispanic food with hella cheese.
April my mentor and straight OG killa comes to SFO from Vietnam and we get to catch up
April my bro and his family come, I finally meet my first nephew
May my best friend from MN comes and we play 30+ games of chess in 4 days, I come out victorious

May 8th, 2015.

Meant to write about repatriation.  OH!  My point is that after almost a year of coming back to the US, I'm still having effects of repatriation because I don't feel comfortable.  I can''t seem to find the place I where I fit in and am actually happy.

ALSO!  Aren't there side effects from having a life threatening episode like guillian barre syndrome?  I wonder if there are any emotional painful periods and do I need psychological counseling to help me adapt?!  Or is that just crazy talk?  I don't know.  Whatever.